so i just read my last post and since then i have spent a little money on new clothes with christmas discount cards.. and a new pair of shoes from Material Objects. but i have still managed to stay on track with my savings for my trip next summer.. with money to spare for my car loan, insurence and school payments.

wow no wonder why i feel like i have bricks on my shoulders lately. I have had a really chalenging science class to keep up with that has really difficult lab work (difficult for me), and 2 other classes that also require a good amount of reading/work.

I was just laying on my bedroom floor with a huge head ache thinking about all the stuff i need to do and all the stuff i wish i could be doing instead, like painting and making christmas gifts.. and cleaning. somehow i need to fit 3 seminars in my schedule before the semester ends. i may not pass if i don't and that is so much hard work and money down the drain. what the hell.

i can't be perfect but i worry that if i don't fix things about how i organize my life soon, it might be too late. I usually can't describe what it is that is bo
thering me because i have so many random things in my head. so many things i'd like to be doing at this very moment. so i am never fully engaged in anything, and its confusing.

school has always done this to me.


daylight is leaving. i need to go for a walk before i cry.

home is wherever i'm with you

For the rest of this year and until Autumn next year i will not be buying pretty things or new articles of clothing unless they will benefit me in camping and biking. I am trying to temporarily erase fashion from my mind and just be happy with what i have and to make the most of it. This is going to be kind of hard to do since maintaining my style has always been the fun part of my life. but i will learn to live free of artifice and work with what I've got! right now I'm all about adventure.

Do epic shit.

this is me as a tree on a mountain while trying to be one with nature/not to fall of the edge!^^

I have hiked my first two beautiful mountains this summer, and i can't wait to go for another. screw eating like a skinny french woman, i am going to run around and play and hike and eat as much ice cream as i want. life is too short!

---My race is so soon. Tobie told me there is food after the finish line, so that is a big motivator right there for meee, and hey! Josh is racing now too :) although he will be WAY ahead of me because he is super man.

xo <3

this is what i want.

Now, i'm not much of a small dog kind of person, but i have always wanted a weener dog. And i've always imagine it to wear a christmas sweater.

hopes and dreams and stuff like that..

wierd but SO amazing..

aaaaaaaaaaaah!